Humans: internal world

Every human seems to have something to say, even if its small or really not much of a thought. Like this blog, it's all about me. I'm looking around and realizing just how much people write and publish articles about themselves.

Who is reading it all? If everyone is focused on themselves then maybe we are only reading about ourselves? Is this a possibility, one day human interaction maybe lost or just plain awkward? Or is it more of the rest of the race wanting to be good at media based communication and just plain isn't? It could be that most are not using the resources for more then to live in their own "me" land and expect others to join in. I guess you have to read all about everyone to truly know.

Revision:

The day after I posted this thought I say a five minute blip on the news. Studies showed that people who use social networking sites tend to be more friendly and neighborly then those who do not. So I guess as long as we go outside this internal life will do no harm.

The red dot list, you are my nemesis...

I find this "red dot" list to be childish, a punishment tactic meant for irresponsible partiers who can't make it to school because they are out drinking, doing coke or just too damn hung over. I have my legal and rational reasons why I can't make it at 5:00 pm sometimes. Maybe it's time to showcase them.

In case you are unclear what this red dot list is, it is a list of people who if do not come to theory class by 5, they cannot clock in after theory and lunch at 6:30 pm to take clients or gain some hours for the day. They just can't come at all. Hmmm Logical. Ever since I have been placed on this list I miss more school then ever and they still call me in to tell me my hours are slipping.

I have panic attacks or just plain fall asleep due to my work schedule. I generally get 2 hours sleep between class and work when I force myself to attend both every day. One will lose. If I nap, I miss class, if I don't nap I run the risk of fall asleep behind the wheel or sleeping through my alarm for work and losing my job is not an option, so I sleep through class. I am not going to put school above work. School doesn't feed me or put gas in my tank. This is something I have chosen to better myself and instead of being able to juggle my school and work life I am being made to feel threatened by the office that I will be kicked out because I can not attend every day. Trust me, I want to get out of there as fast as I can, but my health comes before all. At least that's another juggle.

Deep breath... I will make this work for me. I will petition my little heart out, I have decided. I have doctor support, why don't I utilize it already. If I don't get the ball rolling there is nothing different that will happen right!?? Right! So tonight I write my first email to the owner and we shall see what becomes of it. Wish me luck.

iPod Shuffle, such a good day.

I live in my head while I drive a lot. Don't most? It's not really a good thing is it? Sure sometimes you miss your exit, but one day I am going to miss that human standing in the middle of the road. I have visions that someone will chose my car to jump in front of the day they decide to kill themselves. You have to pay attention to those bush squatters, you never know. Or what about those damn rabbits and squirrels that frequently try to doge my wheels. I haven't flatten any yet, but I have definitely nicked many. Poor things probably army crawled off somewhere to die! Oh, I can't think of that, just stay away from my wheels.

I fantasize that I am cooking or baking some elaborate four course meal or just desert sometimes, I find that more disturbing then my suicidal road stalker. Deep down I wish I cooked more I guess. At least that's what I take away from this. I have made a pretty bomb Tiramisu once, extra brandy for all.

The music that has most recently played while I drove and lived these dreams:

Back To Black - Amy Winehouse Back To Black

Take A Bow - Madonna Bedtime Stories

That's What Counts - We Are Scientists Brain Thrust Mastery

Les OS - The Unicorns Who Will Cut Our Hair When We're Gone?

Fingernails on a Chalkboard - Unwound Repetition

Tired of Sex - Weezer Pinkerton

Black Tongue - Yeah Yeah Yeahs Fever To Tell

Do It - Beastie Boys Ill Communication

Mystify - INXS Greatest Hits

Just To See You Smile - Tim McGraw Greatest Hits

Wait in a Line - Now It's Overhead Wait in a Line

Doo wa Ditty (Blow That Thing) - Zapp and Roger Greatest Hits

That's Where It's At - Sam Cooke Portrait Of A Legend 1951-1964

Everyday - Rogue Wave Stubbs the Zombie: The Soundtrack

Anything Goes - Ella Fitzgerald The Cole Porter Song Book (Disc 1)

Mamma Mia - ABBA The Best Of (The Millennium Collection)

Neverland - The Knife Silent Shout

A Letter To Elise - The Cure Wish

Oh! Darling - The Beatles Abbey Road Rock

Maxwell's Silver Hammer - The Beatles Abbey Road

Dreams - Fleetwood Mac Greatest Hits Rock

Gypsy - Fleetwood Mac Greatest Hits Rock

Let Your Hair Down - Metrofique Swing for Fences

Hollow - Metrofique Swing for Fences

Chain That Ends - Metrofique Swing for Fences

Sugar On MyTongue - Talking Heads Sand In The Vaseline [Disc 1]

Perdido Street Blues - Random Jazz Musicians The History Of Jazz

I Believe In You - YACHT I Believe In You. Your Magic Is Real.

Sun Giant - Fleet Foxes Sun Giant

Wild America - Iggy Pop A Million In Prizes The Anthology [Disc 2]

Like A Pen - The Knife Silent Shout

Tape Song - The Kills Midnight Boom

Silent Shout - The Knife Silent Shout

Strangelove - Depeche Mode Music for the Masses

Time - Timbaland Feat. She Wants Revenge Timbaland Presents: Shock Value

Down Under - Men At Work The Essential

Call Me - Tweet Southern Hummingbird

24 Hours - The Sounds Dying To Say This To You

Hey Jude - The Beatles 1967-1970 (Disc 1)

Eli, The Barrow Boy - The Decemberists Picaresque

Psychic City (Voodoo City) - YACHT See Mystery Lights

Tired Imagery - The Peechees Do The Math

HA HA - Monsters Are Waiting Fascination

Sugar - She Wants Revenge Save Your Soul - EP

Money Changes Everything - Cyndi Lauper She's So Unusual